Each day I am amazed by my daughter. I think I have an obsession with her. I think she is the coolest person on the planet. Jeff and I have switched our work schedules around so we don't have to send her to daycare anymore. I am desperately wanting to go back to school. I love the summer. I hate Tallahassee. I miss the beach and my friends. Hoping for some big changes soon.

Summer Goals:
Go out of town more
Save Money
Start Dancing
Research Schools

Happy Birthday Claire

It is hard to believe a whole year (and a few days now...) has gone by with my daughter... One year of making her be the best person she can be... The hardest, yet easiest, most rewarding and exciting thing I could ever have imagined. I love her.

A Post

I have always been a writer... that is what I wanted to be when I grew up if I didn't make it in ballet. My husband always tells me I should write for something somewhere. I would love that, but I don't think many people agree w/ me, and so my thoughts would never get read.

Claire will be one year old in 5 short days. Where did the time go? It is hard to remember when she could not hold her head up, crawl, talk.... now she is a chatterbox and is walking. She is the most beautiful thing in this entire world. I am so proud of her. I finally feel like I am good at something, and that there is someone who truely needs me in this world.

I set out into the real world this week. 40 hrs/wk job as a manager at Banana Republic. While it is not what my heart wants to do for the rest of my life, it is exciting. To finally not worry about bills, to be able to buy my girls things. Perhaps a new car. Life is looking up.

Why My Day Sucks More Than Yours

*I have a TERRIBLE head cold causing me to have to breath through my mouth which makes for a very attractive display when I try to eat, sudden drips of snot exiting the right nostril at any given moment w/o any notice, achey ears, watery eyes, chapped lips, violent sneezing, and can do nothing to alleviate these terrible symptoms.
*I have become that pregnant lady that pees a little when she sneezes.
*Work 8a-930p til Fri.
*Work Sat and Sun.
*Have NOTHING to do at work, and TONS to do at home.
*Have a not so pleasant feminine infection.
*Have a headache
*Have vitamins stuck in my throat.
*I'm getting cankles.


But the things that are getting me through the day... this cutesy wootsey baby kicking around in my tummy, and my wonderful shmonderful husband who loves me more than the whole wide universe.....

......and my Christmas present around my neck ......

I just threw up :( And of course I had vanilla soymilk this morning....

on a brighter note, I have been feeling the baby kick a few times a day :) That is so exciting.... I think I can only feel it from the inside though, b/c Jeff can't ever feel it.

What a Happy Moment!

Surprise!! Surprise!! Jeff and I are having a baby! Is that not the coolest thing you have ever heard!?!? Avery is very excited... she can't wait to be a sister. She is planning to save all her shoes and clothes so she can give them to the baby :) Due date is Feb 9! And it only took two months of trying :)

WTF

Last nite i had a dream... this is what it was.

My twin brother kileld himself. I knew it before I went over to his place. When I got there, there were red pills on the counter, I had assumed he took them w/ alcohol. Then I went into his room... he wasnt there tho, which is strange, now that I think about it... where would his body have been?? But in his bed there were more red pills... there were some on a dresser and on the floor... some were half eaten, crushed. You know when you go to swallow a pill, but cant, so you spit it back out and then the coloring is all smeared on it??? some were like that... some were just empty gell caps plascticy looking things... My brother killed himself w/ pills and vodka.