Happy New Year

Ive never made New Years Resolutions before b/c I think theyre cheesy and stereotypical and stuff that you should do all the time anyways. But my goal setting tactics apparently are not working, so why not. Im up for trying new things. And seriosuly, if I dont start showing some improvement, I might as well stop. I feel like every day forward is one step underwater for me.

School.
Must be top priority. No more procrastinating. Nothing else matters. Nothing else exsists.
Money.
There is no need to spend money on stupid things like coffee, when you have some at home. Wake up 5 minutes earlier, to allow time to brew. You're being a jackass.
Myself
You will never have a day that is stress free. Figure out what the hell is going on in my head, and fix it. Dont care how. Dont care what. I just want to be normal.
Read more. It makes you feel better.

There. I still dont feel any better. Maybe I dont make them b/c I know Ill fail at it. So if I dont make resolutions, thats one less dissapointment. Maybe Ill post sticky notes everywhere or get a dry erase board..... Eh... here goes nothing. Happy New Years.

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I just tidy-upped my eyebrows at work. The lighting in my cubicle is good for it. I noticed that the right eyebrow always has more to do than the left.... am I deformed?

ILYSMB

First best is falling in love.
Second best is being in love.
Least best is falling out of love.
But any of it is better than never having been in love.
-Maya Angelou

It has been 276 days since our first kiss.

R U FAH REEEL?!

Damnit man... WTF.

I just spilled coffee all over my, wait.... what color skirt am I wearing today??? WHITE. White fucking skirt.........w/ a huge brown stain on it!! And you know what's even better.... the coffee is absolutely REPULSIVE. I opened the lid to see if there were rat feet or frog tongues in there b/c it is disgusting. So.... now I have no coffee to drink b/c this is nasty, but I wouldnt drink it anyways b/c it just got all over my white freakin skirt and Im pissed at it (and wait, its only 8:45 in the morning... I have to walk around like this until 5pm.... and then I need to find SOMETHING ELSE to wear to go to my other job) Man... I actually liked my outfit htis morning too... FU damn coffee thats G-Ross.

Reheating coffee that you made at 630am in the mocrowave, when it is now 245pm, is disgusting.

Kerry '04

I have a few tangents to go on.... but for now Ill just stick to this one....

How on earth, could ANYONE vote for Bush??? Hes incompetent and a total freakin idiot..... PLEASE vote Kerry tommorrow..... If not, we are doomed...

so this is love... hmmmm hmmmm

m in motherfreakin love.... in it... right in the middle of it... and he is too... but we dont say "it". He says hes falling and fallen.... I smile and giggle... and tell him about how Ive always imagined myself as thirty, which he nearly is age anyways, w/ a kid or two, and this amazing husband w/ this house w/ tall ceilings and two fancy cars in the garage and some sexy outfit on like Im Jennifer Aniston or something... and its so wonderful... and I have blonde hair but its kinda chunky blonde and sorta shortish.... and this guy that im sitting on my leather couch w/ watching a movie w/, i always cover this black empty figure up w/ whoever I am dating or have a crush on or w/e.... but I always have to alter something about him.... like his hair or his style, or music taste or some charachter trait I dont like... and I always say to myself I hope he grows out of that.... well this time I dont have to change anything.... He is that.... that perfect loving wonderful picture that I have in my head.... he's there and I dont have to change a thing... and I cant beleive this... its too good to be true... after lunch today I nearly cried w/ happiness for being w/ him and sadness because I didnt want to go... he's amazing...