WTF

Last nite i had a dream... this is what it was.

My twin brother kileld himself. I knew it before I went over to his place. When I got there, there were red pills on the counter, I had assumed he took them w/ alcohol. Then I went into his room... he wasnt there tho, which is strange, now that I think about it... where would his body have been?? But in his bed there were more red pills... there were some on a dresser and on the floor... some were half eaten, crushed. You know when you go to swallow a pill, but cant, so you spit it back out and then the coloring is all smeared on it??? some were like that... some were just empty gell caps plascticy looking things... My brother killed himself w/ pills and vodka.

Happy New Year

Ive never made New Years Resolutions before b/c I think theyre cheesy and stereotypical and stuff that you should do all the time anyways. But my goal setting tactics apparently are not working, so why not. Im up for trying new things. And seriosuly, if I dont start showing some improvement, I might as well stop. I feel like every day forward is one step underwater for me.

School.
Must be top priority. No more procrastinating. Nothing else matters. Nothing else exsists.
Money.
There is no need to spend money on stupid things like coffee, when you have some at home. Wake up 5 minutes earlier, to allow time to brew. You're being a jackass.
Myself
You will never have a day that is stress free. Figure out what the hell is going on in my head, and fix it. Dont care how. Dont care what. I just want to be normal.
Read more. It makes you feel better.

There. I still dont feel any better. Maybe I dont make them b/c I know Ill fail at it. So if I dont make resolutions, thats one less dissapointment. Maybe Ill post sticky notes everywhere or get a dry erase board..... Eh... here goes nothing. Happy New Years.

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I just tidy-upped my eyebrows at work. The lighting in my cubicle is good for it. I noticed that the right eyebrow always has more to do than the left.... am I deformed?

ILYSMB

First best is falling in love.
Second best is being in love.
Least best is falling out of love.
But any of it is better than never having been in love.
-Maya Angelou

It has been 276 days since our first kiss.

R U FAH REEEL?!

Damnit man... WTF.

I just spilled coffee all over my, wait.... what color skirt am I wearing today??? WHITE. White fucking skirt.........w/ a huge brown stain on it!! And you know what's even better.... the coffee is absolutely REPULSIVE. I opened the lid to see if there were rat feet or frog tongues in there b/c it is disgusting. So.... now I have no coffee to drink b/c this is nasty, but I wouldnt drink it anyways b/c it just got all over my white freakin skirt and Im pissed at it (and wait, its only 8:45 in the morning... I have to walk around like this until 5pm.... and then I need to find SOMETHING ELSE to wear to go to my other job) Man... I actually liked my outfit htis morning too... FU damn coffee thats G-Ross.

Reheating coffee that you made at 630am in the mocrowave, when it is now 245pm, is disgusting.

Kerry '04

I have a few tangents to go on.... but for now Ill just stick to this one....

How on earth, could ANYONE vote for Bush??? Hes incompetent and a total freakin idiot..... PLEASE vote Kerry tommorrow..... If not, we are doomed...